I was searching for a photo on my computer recently and had a “WOW” moment. Do you ever have those moments?
Mine gave me surprise and pride flooding together.
There’s a handy feature of IPhoto that allows you to view your photos from the last 12 months. I scanned back to the beginning of that filtered view of my pictures, then flipped back to the present day. I had two revelations:
Revelation #1: I don’t have a lot of pictures of myself from last year. I was uncomfortable with my body and my weight, and if there’s a picture with me in it, guaranteed I’m hiding behind a kid. Or wearing the same cardigan that I could wrap around my body to hide.
Revelation #2: I am headed into 2014 without the goal of losing weight. And I can’t remember when that has ever happened before.
I have this really awesome neighbor who has been coordinating a January 1 weight loss/fitness challenge every year. People ante up $25 and the person with the highest percentage of weight loss wins the pot. I joined (again) last year, determined to lose the baby (and stress) weight. I took these photos on December 30, 2012 to submit to Dietbet for a simultaneous contest that I joined with other friends.
Yes, I wanted the extra accountability and I paid money to two different contests. It worked for me. And holy cow, I can’t believe I just posted those pictures on the internet.
I wasn’t sucking it in and I never thought anyone but the organizers at Dietbet would see them. But I decided to share today in case the Before/After thing inspires someone. I used to seek those out and get motivated.
2012 had been a really tough year. I had gone back to work after a relatively short maternity leave, and jumped right back in to some big projects that included a lot of international travel, some while still nursing and pumping for the baby. We had my daughter’s second surgery for lipofibromatosis, but this meant looking for a doctor out of state where she would be treated since it was so rare (less than 100 cases documented worldwide).
I didn’t win the pot of my neighbor’s challenge, but I did lose my 4% for the diet bet and I was on a roll. I then started training for the Nike Women’s Half Marathon in April and kept rolling off the pounds through the duathlon and triathlon. I tracked my food on My Fitness Pal, but used a lot of the Weight Watchers principles that I learned a few years ago for the how-to. And then I did the Whole30 challenge to break some bad habits and sugar addiction, and I lost a few more pounds that I have kept off.
But mostly? I ran. I biked. I swam. I lifted (light) weights. I did Pilates and barre. And I made fitness a part of my daily life, my weekly life.
So here’s the “After”, 30 pounds later this year:
I am not in search of a “perfect” body – I don’t think there is one. Everyone is shaped differently, and everyone’s body tells a different story. My body’s story would read like a PTSD trauma tale from having three gigantic babies.
I’m just in search of the best me that I can be, the fittest me, the healthiest me. The happiest me.
You see, the “Me” in my head before always thought she could do anything, she envisioned herself doing big endurance events like Ironman. She had dreams of climbing mountains and scaling rock walls. And now I’m bringing the physical me up to snuff to match her.
It feels good to be able to focus on other goals for 2014 – maintaining my weight, improving my fitness and endurance, working on my running/biking/swimming speed and form, and trying new things.
Bring it on, 2014!
Do you have a weight loss goal for 2014? Or a weight loss success from 2013? Tell me in the comments!